Bipolar Check-in #89

Time for a new one. I'll ask for the last one to be closed and link to it.

Hey hey a brand new thread
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It’s almost the weekend here as it’s Friday already. Just have to get through teaching 3 rough classes. Not a great day on my timetable today. I only see Year 8 and Year 9 and they can be tricky.

I managed to finally sleep good last night. I’m just waiting to head out to the bus later. My volunteer coordinator texted me asking if I could fill in for someone today who couldn’t make it in so I’ll be going in for a 6pm to 8pm shift. I really just feel like relaxing at home but I agreed to it so I’ll go in.

Tomorrow I’m helping my neighbor grocery shop. Saturday is my nothing day I’m doing nothing other than my own grocery shopping. I honestly might just order my groceries. I don’t feel up to going out every single day. Sunday night I’m going to the movie theater to see Until Dawn. Then Monday I have to go to the pharmacy again and have a violin lesson that day as well.

I feel kind of overwhelmed lately. I just want like 3 days where I can stay in my apartment doing nothing no obligations and no one bothering me and not having to go anywhere or do anything

I know what you mean blue bird 🐦 I had my nothing day today. My daughter wanted me to come back over but I needed a nothing day. I still got up but I didn’t have to rush to get dressed or do anything.

I slept ok but woke up much too early. I was determined to stay in bed until it was 8 hours from the time I turned my light out. Off that was hard. But I’m trying to train myself to sleep at the same time each night and that means getting up at the same time in the morning. Sunday will be an outlier as I need to be up, dressed and on my way by 8 am. My grandkids are getting baptized.

Today I did my drawings again and one turned out nice, the second, eh.

@Blue_Bird The older I get, the more & more I want days when I can just stay home, not go out or have any appts., just relax.

@Nammu What did you draw?

Today has been weird. I've been sick these last few days. Like aches and pains and coughing and napping and stuff. Then last night and this morning it got really bad. I was hoping just to get like a phone call with my doctor about the labs I had done the other day.

But I had to see him in person. He was really concerned by my heart rate. I asked him "how do I know I'm not just a hypocrondiac?" And he laughed and said "your not one. Hypocrondiacs don't have high heart rates."

So I went to the lab and they did a blood work and an EKG and a chest scan and the lady doing the chest scan said I'd get the results "sooner then later."

Then I came home and napped for an hour. I had this wheezing cough when I woke up. My mom went to Walmart and she came home and said "the only thing the doctor is saying is he needs more bloodwork."

So I went back to the lab and I got all kinds of blood work done. I got these 2 huge vials of blood taken and put in some kinda solution. Then some other ones.

So I'm kinda nauseated right now and in general just tired and not feeling good. I just have these muscle aches like I'm made of glass.

From the 15 minute workbook the pot of flowers. From my 364 days book, a computer. I didn’t really concentrate on the computer. It’s ok but I needed to sharpen my pencil. Tomorrow I’m gonna do take 2 of the wolf. I only have colored pictures left in the 15 minutes book.

Brand new thread, yay! Thanks for letting me know about the white blood cell count @Blueberrybook - my pdoc insists I tell my primary care on Monday, kinda scared me a bit - she can be dramatic sometimes, lol. Sorry so much @Brentus about the financial woes, I am not in that bad of shape yet, but the mountain of bills and my rent increasing really hurt a lot. I need to find something, and soon.

@Blue_Bird - I get why you want to stay home and relax. I didn't go out much last week, and it was just what I needed. Although, for me, I can really get into my own head and I start weeping and getting dramatic, so I force myself outside to keep busy. I am also going to the movies next week to see Thunderbolts - I hope you enjoy Until Dawn.

That's pretty cool to draw a computer @Nammu - I often wonder if I can draw anything, I don't really think I'm artisitc.

Trying to figure out what to do with myself right now. I just ate dinner and all I want to do is lay down, but I am going to try and stay up. Good news is I think my A1C was 7.4 which wasn't too bad. Being diabetic I get really sleepy after meals.

@LadyShadow I decided I’m gonna go see Until Dawn tomorrow night then Thunderbolts on Sunday afternoon. Bought my tickets online. I understand about needing to get out of the house. I do to sometimes. Sometimes I get cabin fever if I’m in too much and it’s not great for my mental health.

After these two movies there’s one more I’m gonna see during the month of May which is the new Final Destination which will be coming out May 16th

@Blue_Bird - I am curious about the Final Destination movie too. I feel like I am way behind. I only saw the first and second one. I don't know really where the story went after that. I am going to see Thunderbolts and I think the last Mission Impossible movie for the end of May. It comes out Memorial Day weekend. I have to see Part 1 before I see Part 2, and it's a 3-hour movie, so I haven't geared myself up for that yet.

I have gotten better with being at home. Last month I was literally running out of my house every day because thoughts were just overwhelming me within the four walls. It will be nice to get out and go to the movies though. I think I am going to get out tomorrow and catch a meeting. It would be nice to see my AA group; I haven't been back there in a while.

Had therapy, she doesn't think I have bipolar just psychosis. I hope she listens and gets my previous records from WV. Florida I was all over the map but I'm not sure of the notes, I know WV t took good notes. she wants a neropsych evaluation for me. I don't know I identify with bipolar, exspecally off medication. You guys have known me for 13+ years am I on the right board? She's known me less than a year and I've had no major swings due to medicine. When I was without medicine it flared my psychosis up. So I ask in 13 years knowing me have I ever had mania or hypomania? This a long with adding two meds wants me to say **** it and ghost everyone.

Sorry I've not been around. I'm still having problems with my physical health along with weird sleep (one week too little, one week too much) and I just don't feel like typing. I am reading though and will continue to do so. In the next week or so I'll find out what the next steps with my nausea will be and hopefully something will help soon. Today I participated in a political rally, my 3rd. They really help because this area is so far to the opposite side of my beliefs and seeing people at the rallies shows there are more of us out there than it seems. I didn't think about APs and sunburn so I have a mild one on my face and neck. I guess it's time to get the sunscreen out. But I'll try to at least give hugs if nothing else. I miss being active here.

Oh don’t ghost us Victoria’s mom. There several people on this thread with a different diagnosis, and that’s alright. Especially since the site has gotten slow and this thread is the fastest moving.

@Nammu I'm just so ****ed lost.

Don’t worry about the diagnosis just concentrate on the results. Getting tested could lead to a positive life change. You’re due some smoother times in your life. This could be a very positive thing.

Nammu makes a good point. Regardless of whatever they label your struggles, the important thing is finding and sticking to treatment that works.


This is "the bipolar forum" but it's really "the people who are capable of feeling a lot at times and care about each other" forum. Whatever they decide on, if you feel like we're good supports, you're welcome to post. We would hate to lose your presence. Your grandfathered in

Thank you guys, I'm tearing up.

I'm maiden-auntie'd in

I dont like going to the movies anymore. It's too stressful having to choose my seat from a stupid chart! I liked strolling into the theater late-ish, soaking in the ambience, and picking a nice seat away from weird people like college students!

I don’t go to movies in the winter. It’s a 30 minute drive on an interstate. The movies don’t start until 4:30, when the sun sets at 5pm. I do go in the summer when the theater opens at noon. I go on $5 Tuesdays with the other senior citizens. The teens all want to go at night, and be cool. I find it weird how many SC go to animated films like I do.

N3 got an A+ in Physics and another A and is waiting for the other two grades to post. N1 has over 100% in every class except Speech and that is a 99. Official grades not posted yet for N1..

See my pnurse tomorrow morning. I expect a refill of Vraylar 3 mg.

I have to vote tomorrow it's election day in Australia for all citizens. It's compulsory to vote or else you get a $500 fine. I'd rather just vote than risk it.

@Crazy Hitch. oh, wow! I didn't know some places fine you if you don't vote.

This evening has gone by fast. I was hoping to get more done, but I needed to stop and rest in order to prepare to see family this weekend. After tonight, I won't really be on here until Monday or Tuesday since I'll be with family. The closer I get to moving, the higher my anxiety gets. It will be nice to get to the point where I know the layout of the complex and feel settled in.

Bipolar wise, my mood felt pretty stable today. Just some mild SI. Hopefully, seeing family doesn't mess with this.

Yeah voting is 100% compulsory unless you're incarcerated or something

So I took the hadol with out the side effects medicine. Because my thoughts are not the best right now. I'm proud of myself getting through this winter. This is the month I normally get hospitalized. I don't see pdoc till the end of the month but t I see next week. So hopefully I stay out.